and i'm not gonna dance around it

from enjoy your remaining years! by Brandon L.

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this awful sickly feeling
that makes me want to vomit
never seems to go away

nearly 22 years living
i still haven't found the answer
to what will stop the pain

the same bedroom all my life
it imprisons and suffocates me
it's not better outside

when everything starts to look up
life seems to find a cruel way
to bring it all down

and it isn't easy to lift
to get back on your feet

when i was 18 years old
i read through the bible
feeling hopeless and lost

almost 4 years later
i struggle keeping faith in this
godforsaken planet

but it's hard to have any hope
in a world so cruel to many
it's hard to not go insane

the last few years have blended
into aimless days of misery
every choice i made was wrong

but we never say it's bad
we just disguise it and pretend

i often escape to memories
many involving childhood
to much better days

the senses of nostalgia
are so strong it starts to hurt
i just want to go back

when i turned 21 years old
it felt like i'd been alive
way too long

i was rightfully abandoned
by friends that saw that
i was really hopeless

but we never say it's bad
we just disguise it and pretend

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from enjoy your remaining years!, released September 3, 2022

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